wrote this poem after coming home from being in court all day. It was February 6th, 2019, it was a Wednesday. I had been helping a friend during a custody case and it was supercharged with emotions for everyone. The anxiety my friend felt was palpable. Though I felt there wasn’t much I could do to help her with that anxiety, I had to remain calm and supportive, though I had to pour out my feelings as soon as I was by myself.
Standing in front of my fears, my worries, my expectations
I hold back my tears, my lonely, my anxious.
I see I have time to bend, to mend and lend a helping hand
That I lay out, with hope, with no doubt
I seek answers folded between papers
Clipped in binders, held in cases.
My words of yesterday bend my reality to tomorrow
I accept that I have said all my words of sorrow
That they are cemented, like plaques honoring the gifted
I see now that belief holds power and good bangs louder
That everyone hears, dancing to feet, releasing fears
Unwavering motion, like eyes piercing
I Blink.
All before me breaks open like waves crashing
Cool breeze everlasting
That breathe I breath fills my new memories
Now I walk with ease, a new me.
What a memory that was, with no residue
No back due, just me as the strong bow
Surprised at how far I can go.